A few hours later, twenty or so of us were gathered around our two leaders to get a lay of the land and split into two groups--half to spend the morning among the birds, half among the plants. We'd join up for lunch and then switch groups. Everyone packed field guides, lunch, water, binoculars, loops, essentials.
|The 11th Essential: a butterfly net|
I was off to a good start among the birders. Did I mention that I am not a birder? I really love just a few birds--the marbled murrelet being my number one--but do not keep a checklist or have a particular desire to see or hear a certain bird except the Swainson's Thrush, whose call I learned when moving to the Pacific Northwest. I did not hear the thrush on this trip, though I did hear a plethora of warblers, bluebirds, robins, kingbirds, grosbeaks, blackbirds, nutcrackers, nuthatches, woodpeckers, killdeers, and coots. I studied their field marks, listened for their calls, tried to memorize the mnemonic for their song, translated their Latin names. Wichety wichety wichety. Receiver receiver receipt. Kon-ka-reeee.
|A fabulous birding spot...despite the clouds.|
I had started writing down the names of the birds I saw and heard, but there were just too many of them. I stopped taking notes and decided to let the songs and calls wash over me and let my brain chose what to remember. It remembered Wilson's Warbler--bright yellow, black yarmulke. Chchchchchchchchchchch
|A 10X magnifying loop should be in everyone's backpack. |
After lunch, fauna. Much. It was all new to me. I hadn't expected the plant life to be so different on this side of the mountains, but this was the near-desert scrub-steppe, not the lowland temperate rain forest where I lived. I tried to make sense of it all, think of the plants in families, groups of dicots and monocots, but still had some wichety wichety wichety
noise buzzing in my brain. I looked to the sky. Ahh. Cumulus fractus with tree representing ganglia in Accidental Naturalist's brain.
|Haywire in the clouds. |
I was having a problem. I was overwhelmed, my brain was saturated. I needed to retreat, to hear just one bird, to study just one plant. But I had two more days to go. So fell several paces behind the group and pulled out my camera. Using the macro setting, I shrunk my universe down as small as I could. This felt so much better. I could breathe. I could see.
|The crevasses of a morel mushroom.|
|Easily overlooked buds on a Ponderosa Pine.|
|Lichen in a color I would have said "could not be found in nature."|
|A shooting star.|
|Rosy Pussy Toes.|
|A moment of stillness: The only fauna that posed for me all weekend.|
Despite my self-preservation efforts, I was really in bad shape by the end of the second day. The species and names and Latin and songs and calls and flowering parts and fruiting bodies just kept accumulating. I wasn't sure what to do with all of the information. There was no time to sort, categorize, let everything soak in. This is not the fault of the retreat, but of my easily overwhelmed brain, my Accidental Naturalist approach: Let's take a hike and maybe hear a bird or two. Let's try to remember the Latin name of a sword fern. Or not.
I wanted to think about everything, why these plants and animals were where they were, where they had flown in or blown in from, how they lived in the world, what made life challenging for them. Yet I am not sure what I would have done with all of that knowledge either. And I seem to be the kind of person who needs to use knowledge. What action could I take? I couldn't figure out how to show my astonishment and my gratitude for all of these birds and plants who were so much more than their names--common, Latin, bi-nomial--and so much more than we'd ever have time to understand.
I opted out of the last morning field trip, though I took a field trip of my own, just walking slowly by myself along a dirt road beside a creek. In the sun, in the breeze, amid the chattering birds.
The day after I returned home, I took a walk in the rain and heard the one song I had craved all spring--the song of the Swainson's Thrush. This is the song a friend describes as "the sound of what my heart longs for but can’t name." Here it here.